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Rehab [Nov. 16th, 2005|12:50 pm]
shr0omtastic
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[music |string cheese incident]

Damn...well some shits finally cought up to me i guess....but I'm goin to rehab tomorrow mornin...eh itll be my first time and hopefully my last....it was willingly...i was the one who wanted to go...but the more time passes and the more i think about it...I'm becoming more scared, I'm not sure if its the future without heroin and some other drugs..or if thats even possible for me, i know i can live without heroin if i really try..but i dunno drugs became my normal and face it i god damn love drugs..I cant live a completely sober life..I know when i get out im going to smoke and do mushrooms and acid..purhaps pills even...i dunno if thats a real shitty mind set but i just wanna go back to the green stuff and mushrooms maaan fdkljfalk anyway i dont even know what i'm saying sorry if i sound fucking dumb as hell right now but i have a million thoughts running through my head, anyway...I'm going to be gone for 2 weeks...no big deal compared to a bettter life but...i dunno...im going to miss thanksgiving with my family and stuff like that...i dunno...i just feel very selfish but i know i shouldnt but i do in someway ;\
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From: agirlworthlovng
2005-11-17 08:15 pm (UTC)
i know how you feel and im sorry about the whole rehab deal. I feel as if im just starting out with all the drugs, and I LOVE THEM. I am just attracted to anything that has to deal with a substance. I wonder if i'll become a drug addict, because with my curiousity about the subject, it seems inevitable. Part ofme wants to become addicted, to feel all of it, as sick as it may sound. i do believe the rehab will give you more self control though, and perhaps you should take a break rfom the heroin because that is harsh, but i ahve to say im curious about it as well. I know no matter what i'll always smoke weed, because weed is weed, and i fucking love to get stoned.
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[User Picture]From: shr0omtastic
2005-12-01 04:43 pm (UTC)

Run man

Run as fast as you can from drugs dude....i wish someone told me that and i had fucking listened...would have saved me many ods and pains...but i dunno ive had good times but bad times just overwhelm the good...I know you're curious and probably not going to listen...i didnt either but at least take some advice...stay away from the chemicals...and heroin and crack and coke...HEROIN especially because i first said i'd never do it...and then once...and then ok a few times and then driving into trenton nearly everyday needing it...yes drugs were fun...until they started to ruin my life so i dunno...just be careful all i can say
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