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Rehab [Nov. 16th, 2005|12:50 pm]
shr0omtastic
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[music |string cheese incident]

Damn...well some shits finally cought up to me i guess....but I'm goin to rehab tomorrow mornin...eh itll be my first time and hopefully my last....it was willingly...i was the one who wanted to go...but the more time passes and the more i think about it...I'm becoming more scared, I'm not sure if its the future without heroin and some other drugs..or if thats even possible for me, i know i can live without heroin if i really try..but i dunno drugs became my normal and face it i god damn love drugs..I cant live a completely sober life..I know when i get out im going to smoke and do mushrooms and acid..purhaps pills even...i dunno if thats a real shitty mind set but i just wanna go back to the green stuff and mushrooms maaan fdkljfalk anyway i dont even know what i'm saying sorry if i sound fucking dumb as hell right now but i have a million thoughts running through my head, anyway...I'm going to be gone for 2 weeks...no big deal compared to a bettter life but...i dunno...im going to miss thanksgiving with my family and stuff like that...i dunno...i just feel very selfish but i know i shouldnt but i do in someway ;\
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[User Picture]From: shr0omtastic
2005-12-01 04:51 pm (UTC)

haha

thanks I'm back...damn rehab was life changing...right now im going straight edge...i cant handle anything right now not even pot cuz i havent had a clear mind in over half a decade and right now i just want everything to slow down...so many friends getting arrested just for bud and now its not even about whos getting arrested next...its about whos going to die next...and i got really fucking sick in rehab from pills and alcohol to the point i was in a wheelchair and them calling my parents about going to a hospital for an iv...its just not fucking worth it...and right now my mind and body are fucking fried...i feel empty and scaried cuz all i think about is taking a sip and i know it wouldnt be a sip itd be a 1000 sips and i couldnt even stay clean in rehab until the very end...so i dunno i'm going out-patient...when i have my own place and i grow my own greens and not buy...not know where the fuck my buds are really coming from...i think im just gunna stick with the drug reality cuz i heard its pretty rough and i wanna try it lol...just one fucking day at a time all i can say
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